"It'll be fun," she said. "They're a bunch of the guys from my high school."
***
nine shots. NINE shots. shit, i only weight 125. and it's only been two hours. i should probably stop. kate's mind was rushing, but she felt like she could fall over, and she never felt more alive, or sexy. gotta make it to the couch, it's not too far. she stumbled, giggling, over to the crowded couch and sat. well... really fell, next to Tanner. she looked up at him. shit. i need some testosterone. i haven't even had any physical contact with a guy in MONTHS. he's not totally unfortunate looking. the world was spinning. she felt warm, the alcohol pulsing through her veins.
in any normal social situation, kate was shy. she didn't talk to boys, much less go over to them and put her hand on their thighs. she looked into his face with her bloodshot eyes, and her rosy cheeks, her blood vessels dilated from the rum. she giggled, and they talked about something pointless. probably guitar hero. sometime after that, senushi must have come over.
"Do you want to go? I think me and Emma are going to go."
kate must have said ok, now she was all alone. she looked around. she was lonely, and scared. she didn't know what to do now. what am i doing here? where is senushi? or emma? shit. she stumbled back into the kitchen, took another shot and tried to walk a straight line back to the couch. ha! good thing i wore flats today. she was next to Tanner. he was reasonably attractive, but definitely not her type. she doesn't remember how it started, but suddenly they had moved to another couch and were making out voraciously, sticking each other's tongues down each other's throats. god, this feels so good. don't stop she thought. and then she asked the question that would change her forever. she came up for air and said, "do you want to go upstairs?" and of COURSE he said yes. he's a fucking GUY.
suddenly, clothes were flying off, he unhooked her bra, and her bare breasts were pressed up against his hot body. they never stopped kissing. he scooped her up, her thighs wrapped around his waist, still kissing. they went into the bathroom. the lights went out, and that's where it happened. that's where kate lost her virginity. in a fucking bathroom with a guy she didn't even know.
***
the next morning, kate woke up feeling extremely anxious. she remembered all of what happened. oh my god. i had sex last night. i wasn't supposed to do that. it's against my morals. oh my god! what happened to the condom?! oh my god!! what if i'm pregnant?!!?
she threw on jeans and a t-shirt, not even looking in the mirror, sped to the nearest CVS and bought the morning after pill. i can't believe i'm doing this. oh my god. oh my god. oh my god. her eyes darted around the store, scanning for people who might see her like this: frantic. she read the directions like it was a map to Heaven, did exactly what it said. she facebooked Tanner. do you remember what happened to the condom? because i need to know, tanner. i need to know. he wrote back. he didn't remember. shit. and she waited...
and waited...
and waited...
***
on wednesday, she was still worried sick. she had stopped eating. she read on the internet that a parsley infusion and massive amounts of vitamin c were implantation inhibitors, and she had been doing that. she had been frantically searching the internet for answers. how soon can you know if you are pregnant? what are the signs? oh my god. i can't believe this. i can't believe this. shit, shit, shit, shit. if they hadn't fucking LEFT ME THERE this never would have happened!!
it was saturday. a week after. the crimson stained her underwear. she immediately ran to the bathroom down the hall from her dorm room, turned on the shower, curled up in the fetal position, and sobbed.
